I am.
My hcg today came back at 22. Not good.
It's pretty low - the average for 14dpo is 48. But it's not impossible that this will still turn into a viable pregnancy. I am still pregnant, just not sure for how long.
I was in shock and unhappy with the number when the nurse called. She seemed unfazed and said it was a start and we would have to see what the number is on Wednesday when I have bloodwork again. She also said congratulations.
So this is beta hell. I am praying so hard for God to strengthen the little embryo (hopefully) in my uterus.
Grow, little one, grow!
Need it to double or greater by Wednesday - otherwise I don't think there's much hope for the pregnancy.
DH tells me to be positive - he is still sure things will work out. But I'm so scared. I finally - finally - got pregnant and now it might be an even bigger disappointment than those many months where nothing happened at all.
I also don't want this news at work. Thinking about working from home on Wednesday so that if it is bad news I can deal with it in private.
For today I am pregnant and trying to stay positive. Lots of cramping going on and I'm going to pretend it's caused by little baby bean setting up shop in there.
I've never had a beta or a positive test, so I can only imagine, but this does sound stressful. But, your nurse is right, it's a start. Hoping for properly rising numbers on Wednesday!
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